I am a writer and sub-editor with MulaZine. I am unable to define precisely what my oeuvre is because I aim to write where my creative spirit takes me – wherever that may be. To put it frankly, I think I’m a jack of all trades but though I’ve mastered one or two, there’s more I can attain and hone. With a platform like MulaZine, I am given a window to pick apart my brains and reconstruct it in the most bewildering manner. For this, I am grateful because I am able to spill my artistic juices on a blank canvas and witness what it produces, even if it is imperfect. Beyond Mula, I am an avid daydreamer but mostly a student struggling to finish his painstaking degree.
I write to decipher my cluttered thoughts in a logical sequence. My mind is incessantly racing with wild and fleeting ideas that I wish to seize in order to obtain an intangible piece of my psyche. My punching the air moment arrives when I am able to create a distinctive world where my pieces can live and one which I am able to visit at my convenience. Through writing, I can split myself into infinite versions, the same way a different version of you exists in the minds of everyone who knows or sees you or a “you” you didn’t know you could be or wanted to be and bring it to life, even if it means temporarily, as I share them with the world. I’m not too concerned about convincing people of the eligibility of my craft. Besides, opinions are subjective to the beholder and as long as I have a burning desire to create then I’m going to keep fueling the passion firepit.
Sun in Pisces, Ascendant in Aries, and Moon in Libra.
I definitely identify the most with my Piscean side but there are certain moments where my Aries placement assumes command when there is an absolute need to. However, as a young kid, I didn’t feel connected to it as much as I do now. Well, that was before I learned that Pisces is actually the last/twelfth astrological sign in the Zodiac and thus, Pisces is said to consist elements of all the signs. This makes the water sign so mutable that they can appear to have more than just a singular identity. That was the moment it all made sense and explained a lot of my feeling far removed from almost everything. As a Pisces, I have one foot in the physical world while my other is perpetually in the unseen world. Naturally, I gravitate towards the metaphysical, and at best, I am an escapist who is attuned to the higher realms of the Universe. In short, I am not really present.
I am in the midst of figuring out my best skill. Maybe my best skill is the attempt of discovering it. The one skill I truly wish I possessed is accepting that I don’t have to love everything I pen down. That seems to be rather hard if I am being honest.
I’m nomadic in a sense – not by its literal definition but more so in a spiritual sense. Simply put, I refused to be tethered to one industry or a position. My soul is restless and craves for experiences I cannot even begin to fathom yet I feel it in my bones, electrifying every nerve in my body as I experience them. I never want to deprive myself of that warmth which oftentimes feels like a hug from the hands of the Universe. I don’t know where I am going but when I get there, I would feel it deep in my marrow. For now, I’m riding my own waves.
I believe I am on an ever-continuing voyage whose anchor will never kiss the seabed but for all that, my shy nature might have robbed me of some potentially great opportunities. Despite this, I’ve been dipping my toes in unfamiliar waters in an attempt to overcome my introversion. I am also very finicky when it comes to my craft which is not ideal because then I start to play devil’s advocate in my own thoughts constantly with no end in sight.
Perhaps those which never had a chance to see the light of day. There is something particularly poignant about the sureness that only my eyes have laid on them. Here’s one: a picture that has three of my favorite things in it: coffee, cigarettes, and a lighter which was a gift from a friend who had it customized in Bangkok.
People who are unnecessarily rude to servers.
I want to collaborate with anyone who simply wants to create. Someone who is willing to nosedive from the high heights towards the lowest depths of the subconscious. An ideal collaboration would be exploring the fantasy, horror, and science-fiction genre, more or less like Lovecraft sans the racism or Edgar Allan Poe as well as any work on existentialism. I would love to work with Guillermo Del Toro, Ridley Scott, Ted Chiang, and Jeff VanderMeer just to name a few which by the way, are all a far stretch.
Give me a shout by any means possible: email or direct message me on my socials! Check out my playlists on Spotify maybe? I’ve recently organized them and will make the public as soon as I deal with my indecisiveness. https://open.spotify.com/user/sahadve?si=7eV6F4-ESFGpZLTJxKlZaA