First Person

HELLO GOD, HEAR ME, ITS ME

Reading Time: < 1 minute Born on the day of the dead in the year 1996 to a family of infidelity, paper boats, and incense smoke. The halogen bulbs in the hospital where my mother gave birth to me seem to diffuse the same indifferent glow in the masjid where i recited kalimah syahadah.

BEING A HYPOCHONDRIAC IN A PANDEMIC

Reading Time: 5 minutes Case study: Me (22+, F). I’ve been a germaphobe for as long as I’ve known what germs are. I remember feeling grossed out when kids ate things off the floor in kindergarten. I remember refusing to use the washroom in the primary school because public school toilets were an experience, even if you weren’t terrified of bacteria

BORED GAMES

Reading Time: 4 minutes Somehow, as a modern society, we have come to collectively accept that raw feelings and emotions are a sign of weakness. Here, Pravin Nair talks about the reality of dating in our modern day age.

MY FLUCTUATING BODY WEIGHT by ATSHAYA JAYADEV

Reading Time: 4 minutes It was such a classic Malaysian thing to do by commenting on someone else’s physical appearance. I feel like people back home, especially the older generation, tend to be quite judgmental when it comes to physical appearance be it weight, skin colour, your choice in clothing, piercings, tattoos, etc. You get the idea. People wouldn’t even ask how I was doing or cared about my wellbeing.

THE REALITY OF OUR FASHION EDUCATION IN MALAYSIA BY XIA YI

Reading Time: 4 minutes I have always wanted to initiate a conversation amongst fashion creatives who went through this exact struggle as I did. I was born and raised in a family of incredibly strong women who constantly had to wear the pants. Growing up in a working class family, I was heavily influenced by my mother’s career path. Xia Yi on the reality of our education on Malaysia

I TOOK MY HIJAB OFF BY SILLA ALAM

Reading Time: 7 minutes Women should be given the autonomy to do what they
want with their bodies, and that includes whether they want to wear the hijab or not wear it. But
the manner in which these topics are approached, that’s what I’m worried about. Discussions
about the hijab are difficult, you either end up offending those who still wear it and those who
don’t.

IDOLA (2002) BY YASMIN ARISA

Reading Time: 4 minutes
You know when you’re listening to a song that makes you feel like you’re in the movie of your life? High on emotions, fiddling your hair as you catch yourself sun/stargazing; on the verge of bursting into tears, reminiscing the romance you’ve never had, or craving the notion to be in love.

MAYBE, A WORK IN PROGRESS BY ROISIN MAYA

Reading Time: 5 minutes Flying back to Malaysia a month ago, I was in a complete daze. The goodbyes at Heathrow were like something out of a movie. There have been a few times now in my life I have physically felt the moment my heart broke and that was definitely one of them. Leaving behind all that I had known for over a year now – yes over a year that I had been that I had not been home to Malaysia.